What? Did those words come out of my 5-year-old’s mouth? Why would he say that? What had he heard to possibly make him say that? Am I already failing to inspire him to want to learn and grow, and be the best? Where have I gone wrong? I haven’t really mentioned college….am I already somehow pushing him too hard?
ME: Why would you say that? Of course you are going to college! Mommy went to college, Daddy went to college, and you and your brothers are going to college.
T: NO! I am NOT going.
ME: But college is fun. Why?
T: I know Megan has to be away from Nana and Grandad, and I don’t ever want to be away from you. I don’t want to go by myself and sleep all by myself. I have to sleep here in our house. With you and Daddy.
Sigh. Relief. This all makes sense. Megan is my much younger sister who has been attending Stanford University for the last 4 years. She graduated this past June. My son really only knows Megan in the context that he loves her, but she is always “gone at college.” Now I just want to take what he has said, and record it into history. So when he is that ornery 17 year old that wants nothing to do with me, and can’t wait to get out to college, I can remind him that when he was 5 he said he didn’t want to go, because he wouldn’t be able to be with me. A moment that I thought was going to show me what a terrible parent I already was, turned into a wonderful mommy/son moment for me. Moments like this make EVERYTHING worthwhile.